Digital content creator and online sensation Vincent Mboya has sent shockwaves across social media after publishing a distressing and emotionally loaded post in which he admitted to feeling defeated, overwhelmed, and on the verge of giving up on life.
In the Instagram story shared on Wednesday, June 2, 2025, Mboya expressed that despite battling overwhelming thoughts, he does not intend to let those self-defeating emotions overpower him.
He affirmed his decision to keep pushing through life with resilience, vowing to persevere until his final breath — one that, he insisted, would only come by God’s will or fate, not by his own hand.
At the same time, the Canada-based creator reflected on what he called a second chance at life, firmly stating that he would not entertain the idea of suicide and that if death ever came for him, it would be through natural means such as an accident or illness or by someone else — but never by his own doing.
“I JUST WANNA GIVE UP AND DIE. But you know what? I will continue fighting till my last breath. I won’t take away my life; it’s either God, an accident, a disease, or someone else does it!”
Canada life
Just months after relocating to Canada in November 2023, the controversial YouTuber stirred fresh reactions after claiming that he could no longer speak Swahili fluently.
In a video shared on his Instagram stories on Sunday, April 20, 2025, Mboya revealed he had been off social media for some time and used the opportunity to respond to fans who had been asking about his whereabouts.
Speaking with a noticeable struggle in Swahili, the controversial YouTuber apologised for his broken grammar and said he was slowly forgetting the language.
“I want to take one minute of your time to address where I have been. Let me address you in Swahili for every Kenyan to understand. I am so sorry my Swahili is bad; I have forgotten it completely,” he shared.
Adding:
“Habari yenu Wakenya, nimeskia, you are looking for me. Nataka kuwaambia I’m doing okay; nimekuwa busy. I have not been online. I have tried. Anyway, I have been very busy, but I’m coming back very soon.”
This is not the first time the creator has raised concerns about his fading Swahili skills.
In August 2024, just months after settling in Toronto, Mboya posted a video saying he had started to forget the language because he rarely uses it in his daily life.
He explained that in Canada, most of his conversations are in English, Spanish, or French, leaving him with very few opportunities to practice Swahili.
“It has been nine months since I came to Toronto, and I’ve started forgetting Kiswahili. Here, I speak English, Spanish, and French, and I can’t remember the last time I spoke Kiswahili. I’m getting worried because I’m forgetting my language,” he said in the earlier video.
