Multi-award-winning cinematographer and entrepreneur Jibril Blessing, popularly known as J Blessing, has shared a deeply personal account of how his late mother’s unwavering love both sheltered and shadowed him, ultimately shaping his adult life and leading him to seek therapy.
In a candid conversation with DJ Moz, J Blessing disclosed that he had finished therapy two years ago because he realised the impact she had made on his life was affecting him in his adulthood.
He explained that while her love was a positive force while she was alive, growing up, it became negative because, in all his life, he had not experienced the love that was left by her.
“I finished my therapy two years ago because I realised the impact she had made on my life was affecting me in my adulthood. It was positive when she was alive, but growing up, it became negative because, in all my life, I have not experienced the love that was left by her,” J Blessing disclosed.
The music director further painted a vivid picture of how his mother worked tirelessly and made sure there was food on the table, and fought for him.
“She was a lady who would ensure there was food on the table for me, and she would fight for me. At the time she was passing on, I felt like I contributed because she had to do everything to make sure I was doing well,” he disclosed.
Mother’s illness
Additionally, J Blessing said that he felt loved by his mother and that she provided for him until she fell ill. He recalled that once she got sick, they relocated to live with his aunt and uncle.
He added that she remained ill for about two years, which deeply affected him, and noted that tragically, she died on the morning of his birthday.
“I felt loved by my mom; she provided until she got sick. When she got sick, we went to stay with my aunt and uncle. She was sick for about two years, and it got into me,” he stated.
“At some point, she told me, ‘You think I could make it on your birthday,’ and she died on my birthday morning.”
Reflecting on the aftermath, he pointed out that after some time, he came to realise that his mother had been covering him in so many ways and that this had led him to become rebellious, trying to find love and someone who would love him unconditionally.
He added that he was easily hurt and often felt others were against him because they couldn’t give what he expected.
“After some time, it was when I got to realise that she was covering me in so many ways, and that is what led me to become rebellious, whereby I am trying to look for love and am trying to find someone who will love unconditionally,” he added.
“That affected me even growing up; I got hurt very easily. I felt like everyone was against me because whatever I was expecting from them, they could not give me but through therapy, it really helped.”
